Meghan Markle only resisted suicide because she didn't want Harry to 'lose another woman' in his life, Prince reveals
MEGHAN Markle only resisted suicide because she didn't want Harry to "lose another woman in his life", he has revealed.
The Duke of Sussex, 36, spoke about Meghan's struggles with mental health as well as his own in the documentary The Me You Can't See.
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Meghan revealed during a high-profile interview with Oprah Winfrey earlier this year that her mental health suffered while she was living in the UK and that she was not given the help she needed when she reportedly felt suicidal.
The duke told Oprah in the new doc that what stopped his wife from giving in to suicidal thoughts was how "unfair" it would be to him after the death of his mum Princess Diana in 1997.
"The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now be put in a position of losing another woman in my life, with a baby inside of her, our baby," he said.
"The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought. She hadn’t ‘lost it.’ … She was completely sane. Yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up."
Harry also spoke about trying to get help from his family during this difficult time when his wife was "struggling" while she was pregnant with their son Archie.
"I thought my family would help, but every single ask, request, warning, whatever, it is just got met with total silence, total neglect," he said.
Harry launched blistering attacks on his close relatives in another interview with Oprah Winfrey – and even admitted to past drug use and booze binges to escape from his anguish.
The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me
The Prince says he was never given the space or the time to really mourn his mother's death, and that led him to eventually try drinking and drugs to numb his lingering pain.
Harry said he would try to "feel less" of what he was feeling and would abstain from drinking all week and then drink "a week's worth" in one sitting as a coping mechanism.
"I was willing to drink, I was willing to take drugs, I was willing to try and do the things that made me feel less like I was feeling", the Duke admits.
"But I slowly became aware that, okay, I wasn't drinking Monday to Friday, but I would probably drink a week's worth in one day on a Friday or a Saturday night.
"And I would find myself drinking, not because I was enjoying it but because I was trying to mask something."
When he was 17, Harry was reportedly sent to rehab by Charles after he was caught smoking cannabis.
St James's Palace later confirmed that Harry had "experimented with the drug on several occasions" but said he was not a "regular" user.
The five-part celebrity-packed doc was released on Apple TV in the US on Thursday night and the UK this morning.
Harry revealed that he's been in therapy for "four or five years" – while also opening up about turning his back on Britain and his family to "break the cycle" of grief being passed down the generations.
The Duke blasted his dad Charles – saying he did little to help him through his struggles.
He said: "My father used to say to me when I was younger, he used to say to both William and I, 'Well, it was like that for me so it’s going to be like that for you.'
"That doesn’t make sense. Just because you suffered, that doesn’t mean your kids have to suffer. Actually quite the opposite.
"If you suffered, do everything you can to make sure that whatever negative experiences you had, you can make it right for your kids."
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