Meghan Markle breaks down in tears & says she told Harry she 'didn't want to be alive anymore' and had suicidal thoughts
MEGHAN Markle broke down in tears as she revealed she told Prince Harry she "didn’t want to be alive anymore" and had suicidal thoughts.
The Duchess of Sussex told Oprah she begged for help from the Firm after struggling with her mental health – saying it was her husband who "saved" her.
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But in an explosive interview with Oprah tonight, the 39-year-old said she had been told she would not be able to seek help as it "wouldn't be good for the institution."
Breaking down in tears, Meghan said: "I just didn't see a solution.
"I didn't want to be alive anymore."
And she said when she reached out for support she was told because she was not a paid employee, she could not be supported.
It comes as…
- Meghan broke down as she revealed 'I didn't want to live anymore'
- Meghan claimed Kate made HER cry in row over flower girl dress
- Harry and Meghan married three days before their wedding at Windsor Castle
- Meghan said Archie wasn't made a prince after talks about his skin colour
- Pregnant Meghan revealed she is expecting a GIRL
- Meghan told Oprah the Queen was 'always wonderful to me'
One night, while suffering suicidal thoughts, Meghan claimed that she forced herself to go to an event with Harry – because she felt she couldn’t be left alone, for fear of what she might do.
Meghan revealed: “I was ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry because of how much loss he suffered.
“But I knew that if I didn’t say it I would do it – because I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.
“I didn’t want to be alive anymore. That was a very clear and real and frightening, constant thought.
"And I remember, I remember how he just cradled me."
She later said Harry, 36, "saved" her.
In the candid chat, Meghan said: "I think he saved all of us.
"He ultimately called it – we've got to find a way for us, for Archie and you made a decision that certainly saved my life and saved all of us.
"You need to want to be saved."
And Harry later added he also went to a "dark place".
In the devastating chat, Meghan said she had particularly struggled while she was pregnant with Archie.
She said: "I didn't know who to turn to in that."
Meghan also said she remembered one conversation with someone in the institution who told her "yes it's terrible" – but that nothing had been done.
And she revealed that it was in fact one of Princess Diana's friends that she reached out to, adding: "who else could understand what it's actually like on the inside."
It comes after Meghan revealed there were "concerns and conversations" about "how dark" her son Archie would be when he was born.
The Duchess of Sussex said there had been conversations with herself and Prince Harry about their unborn son and what colour his skin would be – and "what that would mean or look like".
YOU’RE NOT ALONE
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.
It doesn't discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It's the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it's rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You're Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let's all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You're Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
- CALM, www.thecalmzone.net, 0800 585 858
- Heads Together, www.headstogether.org.uk
- Mind, www.mind.org.uk, 0300 123 3393
- Papyrus, www.papyrus-uk.org, 0800 068 41 41
- Samaritans, www.samaritans.org, 116 123
Oprah had introduced the interview – confirming that "no subject is off limits" and that Meghan had not been paid for the chat.
As the interview began, Meghan, 39, said she grew up not knowing much about the Royal Family, adding: "I will say I went into it naively."
When probed by Oprah if she was "silent or silenced", she replied "the latter".
The bombshell revelations come amid fears Meghan may never return to Britain after the chat.
Insiders fear she and Prince Harry could have burnt their bridges by failing to tell family members what was in the two-hour chat before it was shown in the US at 1am today.
Sources say royals including the Queen were not planning to watch the interview, to be shown here on ITV at 9pm.
Contact the Samaritans
If you have been affected by any of the issues in this article contact The Samaritans on 116 123. They are available for free at anytime.
Or email https://www.samaritans.org/
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